Venting! :( no rude comment please. I just want somw feel good comment

Me and my hubby were trying to concieve for a year now, my AF is due this weekend, however this past weekend we had a problem with my hubbys family and now i changed my mind and DONT want to have a baby right now! Ive being feeling so diffrent from the past months and belive im pregnant, even my hubby tells me im pregnant already, I just want to wait know couple year for a baby! Im so scared to be pregnant know i dnt want to get a BFP, but my hubby still wants a baby. This whole year i was so happy waiting for the BFP and right now im soo scared and confused. All i wanr ro do is cry. Sorry for VENTing but i dnt have noone to talk to :(