Life & ttc after miscarriage

Hi ladies! My name is Britt. Earlier this year I received my first ever positive pregnancy test. It was extremely unexpected. We weren't trying at all when I concieved and my mother struggled with many pregnancys so I had came to the conclusion that I may never have children. At first I was terrified. I had been going through a difficult time with my family, the time didn't seem right and was unprepared. But, soon after I became over joyed and in love with our bean.

Eight weeks in I miscarried. I had never felt so devastated. But, now here we are. Some months we TTC and others we don't. Or rather I don't feel comfortable. My fiance has the worst baby fever but I fear having another miscarriage. I also gained quite a bit of weight in the short time I was pregnant and continued after the miscarriage. I'd like to get back to my normal body before I TTC again. Does that make me selfish? Thoughts? Support? Anything helps. Love to all of you and prayers for many healthy pregnancys!