If you didn't know it, then how would you know that you didn't know it? ?

Regretfully, I was knowingly with a married man for a long time.. Was head over heals at 20 years old and held on to hope that he would leave.. Of course that didn't happen.. But everything happens for a reason and if my path would have gone a different way I would not be married to the love of of my life now and TTC for #1