​On Wednesday, At 9w3d, we went in for our first appointment excited and ready to learn and finally get a glimpse of our little one, but things didn't go as planned. We got overloaded with information that we would need for the months ahead and then headed to the ultrasound room. I don't think my hearty has ever best so fast!! I was so excited to see our baby..and there it was. So small and content in my womb. The nurse practitioner told us that the baby liked to be measuring at 8 weeks instead of 9, but it was nothing to be worried about. She then moved on to find the heart. As she was looking she kind of stopped talking to concentrate. She told us hat she thought she saw a "flicker" but wasn't sure. She said sometimes their machines aren't as accurate, so she sent us to fetal maternal medicine for a better view. There is where we learned there really was no heartbeat and our baby was gone.