It has to happen eventually?

Steph
So this month I tried, I mean really tried. We took a trip my fertile week across the county and tried lol. I had a lot of cramping one day, about 4 days after ovulating and my period wasn't due for another 12 days. Now, I'm 6 days away and I'm sad and confused and frustrated cause I don't think we made it this month. I feel like it has to happen eventually right? So why not this month? I guess it's a 50/50. Either yes or no. I just really love him and want to have this experience with him. He already has 1. I have none. I want this so much :(