I was rapped by a boyfriend of only a month. I ended up pregnant but was in denial because I didn't think he messed up my life that much, I had a career plan that was ruined because of pregnancy.  I kept the baby cause I was afraid it would spend forever stuck in the system. Well 6 years later I'm now married to a wonderful man who is the only father my child has known. I found out my ex has moved back to the area and the thought of running into him freaks me out. How do you deal with possibly seeing your rapest without warning? I just started to feel normal again and stop hating myself for what he did to me but 6 years later he still gets to me, he puts me into a panic I shake just thinking about it.