I went out with this guy then he dumped me and then he asked to be fwb so I said yes thinking it would make him like me. I gave him 2 blowjobs and then we were going to have sex but then we didn't because he changed his mind. (Because My dad wanted him to come and talk to him because he knew something was up) I feel so dumb and naive.

He was my first boyfriend (if that's even what it was)

How can I forget about it and not feels so guilty and disgusted with myself?