Well - this is it!

I can't take the fertility pills, waiting for a + opk, temping, and BDing on the perfect day when it all leads to the same outcome - AF! I'm only 5 dpo & I don't have any hope. I think the last year has just wiped me of any hope I had for a child. We can't afford a specialist, so I guess in 2015 we will officially stop TTC. In a sense that feels freeing, but it's utterly devastating. Hopefully someday I will be okay with the fact that I wasn't dealt the life I hoped for. Good luck to all you ladies!