This grieving process is awful. This is the strangest, most awful pain I have felt in my life. I think what makes it worse right now is that I have been knowingly carrying the baby still since last Wednesday and don't have the procedure until Tuesday at 2. I hope afterward I can cry I few days and heal physically and hopefully some emotionally too. I know this hurt will never fully go away and I will always miss my lite angel baby, but  ready to be excited about trying again. Everytime I think about trying again I feel like I'm disrespecting the baby I did have, however breif it was. Is that silly? But part of me wants to try right away because I know it help both my husband and I feel better.