Feeling broken

Annette • Just got my bfp with our rainbow baby 🌈
So I've left the hospital now, but Tommy had too stay he's not well enough to leave yet he needs to be fully breastfeeding so they can remove the feeding tube. 
I feel broken.
It's so weird, I know I'm not pregnant but the cot is empty. It doesn't feel right.  It's just so difficult being separated from him 😞😣