I just wanted to tell this story...

So one day I was at my friends house and on Fridays her mom works tell 10:00 and when I was at her house this boy Matthew that I was talking to but we were not dating but I really liked/like him but I know her just wanted to have sex. Then I opened to text and he asked where I was at so I told him, and it turns out that he was talking to my friend to and he asked if he could come over and she told him yes so her did. When he came he sat on the couch and my friend got on his lap and they started kissing so I went in her room cuz I didn't wanna see he do that with a boy I really liked. Then after a while she told me to come back in the room and she had her shirt off but they didn't have sex tho. Then he took me in my friends moms room and closed and locked the door. Then her started trying to kiss me but it was weird idk why but it was weird to me. Then a didn't really want to kiss him and stuff so then he asked me to suck his thing and I didn't wanna do that ether. He started getting mad and I didn't want him to get mad at me so I keep telling him sorry. Then he was like so ur gonna do it and I said no then her was like OK then bye. So I was like OK no I'm sorry I'll do it then I did it :( and after he wanted to have sex so it took a while for me to gain the courage to do it then I said OK so we got in the bed and he was like take your shorts off and it took a while again but then I did it then I told him to put on the condom he had brought but he didn't want to and I said to him if he didn't put it on we weren't gonna do anything so he said OK then he was trying to put it on but he was being stupid like it didn't fit so I just let him do it with out one then after when I went home he texted me like you better not be pregnant and it turned out that I was and I was only 13 at the time now I'm 14 but I ended up having a miscarriage at three mounths :(

He made me feel so stupid and he was happy that I had a miscarriage.

Am I stupid that I still like him?