I don't know what to do.

My husband and I just had our 3rd miscarriage. First one was over a year ago, second one was on Sept 5th, and third one was December 16th. He doesn't wanna try again right now (not for another year), and I understand why. I on the other hand have mixed feelings.. I don't wanna try again right now because I have to see a specialist, and get other tests done to see why I can't carry and give my body a rest, but then again, I do wanna keep trying because I CAN get pregnant, and don't want to give up. I feel like if we just try one more time we can get it right and maybe just maybe, this will be the right time. I keep telling myself everything happens for a reason but I feel like I'm being punished and it's just a heart breaking feeling. Has anyone else went through this? Feeling down because AF showed up today and made me think of my d&c and my child. :/