I am giving up. 6dpo 😪

So I just know I'm out already and I'm depressed. Everything that could go wrong well I feel has and will lead up to yet another BFN. <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> was done CD #14, ICI done 12 hours later still on CD#14. Then my temp dipped below coverline twice the rises and dips below coverline AGAIN! Yesterday I started getting a sore throat and now a cold is starting. I really just want to cry. My BBs are sore but that is a normal AF symptom. Shes due anywhere from Friday to Sunday. I'm over this TTC. Then because all I think about is baby I have a crazy dream about a changing a newborn baby boy, almost dropping him but not catching him by his clothes and then he's older by a few months, and he's reaching for me. Now my mind is playing tricks on me.