Rant. Really depressed and forgotten

I am so upset. My birthday is tomorrow, and my bf works all weekend 13 hour nights 5 pm to 6am. And sleeps from 630 to 4. You think he'd plan anything or get me anything, nope. He's soo sick (a cold) and tonight was our only night to celebrate. I do so much tp try and make everyone have a special birthday including him and I get stuck, with no family coming (camr for siblings) and I know as an adult and parent that it shouldn't matter much but it certainly matters that I feel like I Don't matter at all.