Control

Jamie • TTC since July 2014. Two angels in heaven, Oct 2014 & June 2015
I'm having a very hard time differentiating where my control ends and faith begins. Right now I have the diagnosis of pcos, so I'm taking Metformin for that. I'm also taking letrozyl to help me ovulate. Of course I track ovulation and the two week waits are brutal. I had a miscarriage in October and since then I'm terrified of it happening again, but I deeply long to be pregnant. So what do I let go of when I give it to the Lord? I know his will, will be done but I cannot just "stop tracking" everything without worrying even more.