Tomorrow ... Tomorrow I visit my doctor to ask why I haven't been able to conceive a second child in over a year of trying. I am absolutely petrified and anxious all that the same time. When I got pregnant for my daughter in 2010 we weren't trying, and had sex all of one time in Feb and boom she was due in November. When I found out I was pregnant I was in shock, and not overly excited despite the fact that I was in a great relationship and financially independant. I just hadn't planned for it. I had a long hard pregnancy and delivery was right out of a horror novel. I vowed I would never have another child and suffer the way I had that year and my partner agreed. For two years after I delivered my daughter I silently battled post partum depression and major anxiety. I remember the day the fog lifted and how much regret I had that I hadnt asked for help sooner. My incredible daughter is now 4 1/2 and I am finally ready to attempt It all over again... after a year of trying I'm so deeply sad it hasn't happened yet. I feel like I can handle it now, good or bad pregnancy I'm ready for it.  I just don't know if my soul can handle bad news tomorrow. I really want to experience the flip side of pregnancy, delivery and those first few newborn weeks.  Does anyone have any advice :(