Can't take it anymore :'(

Nicola • Married. 29 years old. Mmc at 11 weeks July 2015 and mc at 4+3 weeks Nov 2015. Pregnant with baby girl due 30.07.17 ♡♡
I'm so fed up of getting bfns...I'm so unhappy :'(. I haven't had a period in 9 weeks...blood test negative. I'm normally regular! I feel crampy, exhausted, sore boobs but still bfns and still no period...just wish my body would make up its mind what it wants to do! I got this on a hpt the other day and 70% said bfp but tested again today and it's stark white - major bfn :'( I feel so depressed. This is my test from yesterday x