Jealous...

My friend is 2 weeks further along than I am. I found out she's getting an ultrasound every 4 weeks when she goes in to see her doctor.

I had one at 8 weeks and won't have another until 22 weeks.

I'm a nervous wreck as I've had 2 previous miscarriages. So I think it's pretty normal to be afraid something is wrong.

So I'm a tad jealous knowing she gets to see her baby every month and I don't even get to make sure my baby is doing well....

I also feel like another ultrasound would make it more real for me as I think I've been subconsciously afraid to get attached to this baby....

Anyways, what do y'all think?