I feel crazy

Been TTC for almost 2 years... After surgery, clomid, clomid for my husband, acupuncture, homeopathic meds, and much more.... Got an update from my husbands sperm count again - still very low.  I just lost it. I'm so sad, depressed, frustrated. Why is it so hard?!?! We have to start another 3 month treatment then maybe IVF.  I wish the adoption process was easier or we would do that, but emotionally I'm not sure I could handle it. Anyone else feeling the same? I know we all have stories.