how will i cope??

so when i was 21 i was in a relationship with the love of my life. i got pregnant and the day i found out he left me and i havent seen him since. fast forward 2 and a half years. i meet an amazing guy (been together 9 months) find out im pregnant i find a super cute way to tell him... broke the news to him and he tells me to abort i say no and now he uas packed his bags and left im not ready to be a single mum with 2 children :( im so scared right now