I will not poas, I will not poas...

Heather
8dpo, AF is due 5/14 (my prediction) or 5/15 (glo's prediction). This is our third month TTC #1, I'm 41. We bd the day we got our peak on the opk and the day after and used soft cups both days. I'm having mild cramping and I am bloated - both typical signs of AF for me. I want to poas, but won't let myself. I'm 99% sure AF is coming because of cramps and bloating but if I don't poas, I can still have hope. Anyone else feel this way.