Disappointed in my weight gain 😔

I was 30 pounds overweight when I conceived, and at my 36 week appointment today I have gained 44 pounds 😔 I was trying to stay at 25 total. I feel like such a failure, and ugly. I have actually cried over this. I have felt such a lack of support since I haven't been able to go to my weight watchers meetings, and have fallen into bad habits. Otherwise I am having a perfectly healthy pregnancy, few discomforts.Â