My story, sorry it's a bit long
Hi! I'm Marine, i'm 30, my birthday was last tuesday🙈. We decided to go off BCP two years ago. My now husband asked me to mary him a month after getting of birthcontrol. We were trying for six months and stopped because, i wouldn't fit in my dress pregnant🙈😂. We got married sept 20th 2014. We've found out we were pregnant 2days after christmas! The perfect christmas gift😍. We went for a first consultation with an OB/GYN around 5/6weeks in. She told us it was really small and that's it, during the U/S the closed the drape so my husband couldn't see, he didn't like it. It was during holidays and living in france, she never told me that there was food I should not eat (smoked salmon, foie gras...), didn't weight me either. So we decided to change OB/GYN and go to one recommended by a friend. The appointed was made 3weeks later, around my 9thweek. At the appointement, the doctor was perfect, except that during the U/S, the baby was far too small for 9weeks, and we couldn't the heartbeat, he told us to come back 4days later to see if the pregnancy had progressed, it hadn't, I had a D/C on jan 30th. I never bled, never had any pain, and was still feeling pregnancy symptoms. When I went to that appointement, I was expecting to see arms and legs😩. It was hard. And I told my best friends when I found out i was pregnant, because I knew I wanted support in the worst case scenario. Except one told me that I needed to see a someone because I wasnnt a hundred percent happy 15days after the D/C😳.
Anither one told me I had to talk to her about it, told me how to act and how I should feel (she found out she was pregnant at the same time)
It hurt. I didn't ask for people to feel what I feel just to understand that it would take take time and let me deal with my husband my own way.
For the happy part, my OB/GYN told me at the consultation after the D/C that everything was good to go after the next AF. It came back 5 weeks later, and I didn't really thought about the whole baby making. This ordeal brought my husband and I so much closer, stronger, more in love than before❤️. Well when you love someone🙈 you have sex, a lot apparently🙈. Anyways, i had my last period march 9th, and I told myself that I should have the next one around april 9th, except, march is 31 days long, and I was kind of late without really being aware of it. I told myself that as long as I didn't have sore boobs, I wasn't pregnant. And that with my luck, my cycles were now wrecked and would have 5weeks cycles. Except I was now 37days in my last cycle and couldn't stand the not knowing. I did an at home test, and while waiting went to store the groceries. When I went to check, and picked up the test, I was convinced that it would read negative. It was positive, and it felt weird, because I didn't want to be happy too early, couldn't believe that we would be expecting so soon after. I called my OB/GYN the next day, and got an early appointement the next week. U/S appointements now are a big stress, everytime.
My last appointement was the same really stressful but, when he began the U/S, baby was, at 3cm, dancing inside my belly, so we didn't have to wait for the doctor to tell us that baby was well and, sorry for this but alive. It feels like some weight has been lifted, even if I think I worry much much more than if I hadn't had a miscarriage before.
Here is my story😉 thank you for reading💋
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