I just need to vent a little,

My shower is today and I can't help but cry because hardly anyone is coming! My sister can't make it, my aunts won't be there, his aunts won't be there, my best friend has to work, and ALL day yesterday I received "Sorry can't make it texts" all day long... This shower has been planned for 3 months! This is my first baby. My mom kept yelling at me, and telling me I was buying myself too much for the baby... Well it looks like I haven't bought enough 😭 I was ready to have what I needed before little guy got here but no one has even looked at the registry. I can't help bit feel upset. I'm not trying to sound selfish, but I feel like no one is excited about my baby... My aunt who isn't coming is doing a strangers baby shower and not even coming to mine and me and my aunt are close... I'm totally heart broken 😭