I feel childish.

My SO is older than I am. Has a son from a previous relationship. The boy is almost 20. He's completely supported by his dad; rent, out of state art college, food etc. Never had to work a day in his life. We have been together for 9 yrs. My SO visits his mom 4 times a day, puts everything in front of us, our home repair. We don't even go INTO a restaurant but he'll drop everything to take his son.

I want to number one.

This is why I'm jealous.