Happy and jealous

Kari
I am so happy for all the lady's on here getting their first ultrasound and getting to see their baby... But I am jealous at the same time... I want to know what is going on in there but my levels aren't high enough and I feel like I just can't get any straight answers... I am supposed to be 8 weeks according to my LMP but there is a good chance I am not that far along if I in fact have a viable pregnancy... I just don't know what to do or how to feel I have wanted this baby for so long and yet nothing seems to be going right