I had been TTC for 6 months. In my fifth month I got pregnant but it was a chemical. I was so excited and then was just let down. It hurt so much mentally and physically. I got pregnant the cycle after. I'm currently 5w3d and I'm not as excited as I was the first time. Honestly it's because I'm terrified I will lose this child. People act like there is something wrong with me. I know a lot of it is that my hormones are all out of whack too. I'm excited. But I'm almost afraid to let myself be too excited. I've always been this way though even with smaller things throughout life. Can anyone relate? Or am i being overly weird because of my hormones?

Thanks :)