Wanting a baby

I went from depo to getting off ttc for 6 months to back on birth control but the pill for 3 months because I decided we should wait and stop trying im about to be 20 starting my junior year. Its not that I didn't want a baby anymore I want to start a family so bad but i just knew the time wasnt right just because of the fact im only 19 and were transitioning cities and homes and im still in school. But yesterday i saw an ex who was with his son and we sat together and we played with him, i fed him and im around babies all the time cause i have neices and nephew so it waant just the fact that i had fun playing with a baby but as i watched him play with him i was just staring like wooowww this is awesome i really do want this feeling not with him but with my new SO. Should continue to ignore this feeling because of my factors or stop trying to be so in control of how getting pregnant will effect certain things and just do what makes me happy