Abused by my family. (Long post)

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From age 2-6 I had febral seizures and from 6-12 petit mal seizures. After coming off the seizure medication I developed a neurological tic (twitch not Tourette's).

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All my other disorders stem from all the harrassnt I dealt with in school. At age 13 I was verbally harassed my freshman year of high school. I had developed high anxiety and mild depression because of that. I've already had ADD almost my whole life and was in resource class since my freshman year there and those not in the program really harassed me. 

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I was in and out of the guidance counselor office and sometimes missed many periods of class in a row. I was harassed for many things. Being a virgin, my weight, how I never wore makeup. I went to Catholic private school my whole life and on dress down days people would make fun of me for being emo at the time.

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My life got worse as time progressed. College wasn't easy. I was an amazing student. Always got great grades. Was pulled into bad habits through peer pressure. Cigarettes and drinking socially which both I never planned on doing. I was under aged too. I started having sex my first trimester at that school a month before turning 18. I always thought sex would bring me love. It didn't. I had 6 partners in my 2 trimesters there.

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My grades never suffered from that. Graduated from that college with a 3.29 GPA. After that college I went to a different one due to an injury I had there. Harassment had slowed down and I finally had friends. Dating never slowed down and I still went out a lot. 3 years ago I was diagnosed bipolar. 

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I still thought sex would bring me love. I finally met an amazing man a year ago who is trying his best to help keep me healthy and happy. I've never been happier with a boyfriend in my whole life. Before Tom I had 35 sex partners and 7 of those were boyfriends. Never cheated or lied to anyone. Always had good intentions. Long term leading to marriage. Tom wants to marry me one day. But when I become more responsible and get a job which isn't easy due to my disabilities. 

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Now on to my family story. They've never been able to understand what I go through. I'm on medication for every problem I go through and all they want is for me to be on more medications. They constantly yell at me and make me feel like I'm not worth being with any man. They make me feel like I am stupid and not capable of doing anything. I am extremely smart! I also have a learning processing delay I forgot to mention above and just learn and read slow but I absorb things like a sponge absorbs water. I try so hard to be accepted by my parents but they just don't try to. They ruin my life and I blame them for me being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I'd like to be loved by them but they just don't. 

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What should I do?