4 pregnancies, 2 miscarriages and one beautiful little boy. We were over the moon when we found out we were pregnant this time, we had been ttc for 6 months almost.. my first 3 pregnancies weren't planned, so I feel this loss is so much harder than the last.. I haven't been able to stop crying, yesterday I woke up and was pregnant and by the time we went to bed I just wasn't anymore. Just like that, gone.. I can't eat, can't sleep, don't even wanna get out of bed.. I just want my baby back.. how does one deal with such a heartbreaking loss?