Given up

Am 28yrs old n i think i hve given up ttc #1. I was on inplants for 3 months n i just decided it wasnt right so i had them taken out. I feel like i have done everything by the book n its just not happening. My husband doesnt seen bothered but his a guy in my society i will be labelled the one at fault if we cant have a baby. Am sad n each time i think abt babies i break down i cant stand to see a pregnant woman i feel like a piece of my heart breaks each time a see a pregnant woman n i have been seeing alot of those lately including kim kardashian. I have been suffering from endometriosis since i wa 8yrs opd i just found out it cud lead to infertility. I feel like its time for me to accept n come to terms with the fact that i will never have children.

 In uganda fertility treatments are very expensive n so are all the other options like adoption n IVF. 

Am simply writing this because i dont have anyone to talk to or to ask for help this alone brings tears to my eyes.....am sorry for having to offload my burden on who ever is gonna read this. I just wish someone out there would help me n my husband.