I can't believe this

Well today is the day Af is Due and so far she is a no show you would think I would have Ran out to get a test right ....Wrong I'm so nervous and usually I'm on it but now I'm too scared to find out esp because my symptoms haven't been consistent Nausea here and there tingly boobs one day fine the next frequent urination is constant but then again it's Hot out so it may be me drinking more idk Appetite been screwy but maybe I just didn't like it Also no cramps no spotting I couldn't wait for this day now I'm freaking out SO wants this just as much as I do but I don't want to disappoint with a BFN #Thestruggle