Need to vent. TWW is almost over!

Okay, I am freaking out. My AF is due Sunday. No sign of her, thank God! I've had almost all the signs of early pregnancy, but I can't believe it. This has to be in my head! No way I'll get a BFP our first month TTC, right? Well, I'm hoping and praying we do, I just don't trust myself. I'm about to get off work in a few minutes (3rd shift) and I desperately want to run home and take an hpt! But I've promised myself I wouldn't become a pee-on-a-stick addict! That I'd wait until AF was late, so not until Sunday. But its driving me crazy! I want to know!!! But if its negative, do I still want to know? Yes, I do. At least then I can stop freaking myself out. But if I test too early, I may get a false negative and have my heart broken for nothing! Grr! I wish our bodies just sent us a text message like as soon as it happed! "Hey! How r u? BTW, u r preggo!" Okay, well thanks. I needed to vent. Here's to missing AF and BFPs for all! ❤