Going to stop trying.

So yesterday I realized that I was putting way too much time and money into trying to have a baby just for nothing. I decided I'm going to stop. All that's coming from it is heartache. I have one beautiful little girl who is 15mo and a wonderful husband. I have a job (as crappy as it may be I have one). So I'm not going to focus so much on another baby. I wanted my babies to be really close in age but it seems like the more I try the further apart they going to be. Anyways, I think I'm going to continue to follow my cycles just so I know my body but not going to worry about when to BD. I'm going to focus my energy on weight loss/health, my writing, my daughter and of course my husband. (Not in that order either lol). Been trying for 4 months now. And I'm tired. Going to start enjoying life as a whole not just 1 part of it. :)