Hopes Gone

DH and I have been ttc for about 48 months now. Last night we were discussing what our next step is going to be.. our conclusion is... if we failed again this month.. we will be stopping tcc..I am feeling devastated but okay about it. I know of all the disappointment I have felt throughout these past four years, all the tears I have cried these last four years, all of the money spent on tests (hpt and doctors visits) and most of all.. all the blame I have placed on myself these last four years. All I can hope for is a bfp in the next few days. Undiagnosed infertility sucks ass!! Who would of thought that ttc would take a major toll on my life. Congratulations to those who have been successful and I wish you luck to the ones who had been unsuccessful ♡