Hi girls!  I just need to chat, ok? 😉  I'm about a week away from my 4th & final <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>. I'm fairly rational & usullay do a pretty good job of controlling my thougts & emotions & not letting them run away from me. (I haven't always been so good at this, but by the grace & mercy of Jesus, I'm not the same person I once was. And I'm so thankful for this.). But I digress. Lol. So...most days I am calm & composed & confident in my faith. I believe The Lord has revealed to me that He does have a baby ordained for us. And that this is THE moment that He has been preparing me for over all those horrible years if waiting. An I know He uses periods of waiting in our lives. And I know His timing is SO perfect.  So I am anticipating & expectant of His miracle. That being said, I do have days where I'm so panicked & terrified I feel like I can't breathe. There's SO much at stake. And having had the loss in Maech makes it SO much more intense. Just had to share. Thanks for being here, for caring & for praying. I seriously 💜 you girls. You all remain I my prayers. Also, I want to say to you that I am no more special to The Lord than you are. If He has done this for me, He is certainly also willing & able to do it for you!!  For the record, I am fully expecting mar axles for each if you too!  You are the apple of His eye!!  Have faith!!