So....after a year TTC and constant abdominal pain the doctors want to do something. At first they sail it was PCOS, but I have a feeling there is something else. I have an appointment for a sonogram, CT scan and blood work on the 6th. I'm so excited to finally have an answer, but terrified at the same time. I want boring more then to be a mommy and my biggest fear is that it may never happen. I hear people tell me constantly that I would make a wonderful mother, and then they tell me that if it's meant to happen it will. Those two together make no sense to me. The hardest part is not knowing.