Having a horrible weekend already!

Today is the day my grandmother died several years ago. It was a very sudden unexpected death and it still hurts. We aren't having our usual family picnic to celebrate the 4th of July this year so we have nothing to do, and to make matters worse I got a negative pregnancy test again today!! I just feel like curling up in a ball and crying today. I just feel sick of everything!! Sorry I just needed to vent!!