Advice

So my boyfriend has been and out of jail for drugs. He got caught smoking weed in 2012 (I know it's a plant) he  has been on probation since because he kept failing his piss test, got pulled over with Molly made by a friend, got a dUI, Etc. When he failed for spice last summer he was in jail for a month then sent to a correction center/rehab for four months. While he was away I sent him 50$ every week for food and money for phone calls, and sent 50$ for cigarets. When I wanted to go see him I had to pay 50$ to my mom because I don't have my license and it was an hour from where I lived. 

While doing all that I just bought my frist car I worked really hard for it, hoping someone would teach me how to drive because their excuse at the time was "not in my car". (I'm 20 years old btw) I saved up for an apartment for my boyfriend and I to live in when he got out. When he got out, two months I paid all the bills, gas money, food, his cigerates, while I worked my ass off he was slowing going back into his habits Lying, sneaking around, saying he was at work when he would really be out smoking spice. He was driving my car which was fine, because he took me back and forth to work and himself, I couldn't do it and someone had to.  But he was obviously lying where he was. He got fired because he'd call off and told me he got laid off. Well one day while I was at work his probation officer called me asking where he's been, because he didn't check in. Well that day he told me he was on his way to his check in. Lie. Came and got me from work, went through his phone when he wasn't around because I didn't want him to know I knew he lied. Found out he's been doing drugs, and smoking again, found a picture of his fake penis he was using to pass all his drug test. Which cost 99 dollars, so while I was struggling paying the bills he was buying drugs and a fake penis. He went "in hiding" when I told him his probation officer called, skipped out on court, etc. found out I was pregnant so he turned himself in, and said he wanted to movie to Kansas and clean his act up and be with his mom and didn't wanna lose his family. His parents wanted to help us financially. I agreed so while he finished out his probation in jail I moved to Kansas with no license, no job, no friends, no family. My family lives 14 hours away and it's the hardest part about this because my mom is literally my best friend. I've sat here for months doing nothing. His step dad and mom are really sweet people. Have been nothing but good to me. My boyfriend is now here. He's been here not even two weeks, has a job, been running around with his sister (she's more like a boy, she's gay and looks like a boy. Lol) she and I don't get along because we recently got into an argument. Well the point of all this is should I go home. I'm miserable. I'm bored, sit around by myself all day, I miss my family. I tried to talk to him about how I was feeling and he said if I go home we aren't going to be together. I didn't think all this through when I moved here. All I could think about was giving my family a good life and didn't realize my happiness mattered to. I've been with the guy since I was in 8th grade, it hasn't always been this crazy. The only problems we have are due to drugs and lying about doing them. I have trust issues due to the fact he lies all the time. I don't wanna lose my family but I don't wanna lose myself even more than I have. I love him but I can love him from a far. Advice? Sorry for the misspellings and grammar.