Tired, frustrated, sad

Akeya
Who am I kidding? I'm 38 years old, prediabetic, and I have 1 tube after an ectopic in 2012. I just want one more. But I have to be honest..I can't afford fertility treatments. It's silly of me to even entertain the thought. Getting pregnant naturally is not an option, but neither are fertility treatments. My heart's desire cannot be fulfilled. :(