Afraid to test :( cycle day 31

My longest cycle ever was 32 days. 
Average is 25 days.
2 days I have had 2 instances with blood streaks in cervical mucus. That's it. & a few minor strange cramps. 
I'm exhausted, my boobs hurt, & I get randomly nauseated.. But I also have this happen when my period is about to show. 
I'm afraid of testing because I'm afraid it'll be another negative :( 
Ugh. I keep telling myself AF is coming because I don't want to get my hopes up & then AF to show & get upset. 
We haven't been preventing, but I haven't been tracking to officially "try" either... Just no prevention.. No condoms no withdrawal no spermicides no birth control etc. 
Gah I hate this!!