The fuck did you have to be so fucking nice to me!?

Why did you have to stare into my eyes as you slowly took control of me?

Why did you have to make me laugh, and have so many of the same views as me!?

Why were you so nurturing and caring?

Why did you say you wanted someone to connect to!?

Because you felt alone and invalidated, you felt like trash and needed to be nurtured yourself.

You needed to be pampered and cared for, to be thought of as a real person with thoughts and feelings.

To be validated and encouraged, to have someone there to make you feel real again.

I knew exactly what I was doing when I was with you.

I knew you only needed to feel real and then I'd never hear from you again, but did.you have to be so nice? Did you really have to be so kind and caring!?

I LIKE YOU! A LOT! It didn't help.that you said you liked me too, but you and I both knew that you had only needed me to make you feel like you again. To make you feel strong again.

Now, I'm horribly attached to you, still thinking of the time held each other while petting your head and when you stared deeply into my eyes.

I knew you weren't thinking of me, but the feeling you showed me with your body has now deeply embedded itself in my being.

I think I'll stay attached to you for quite a while. I'm scared of what this might develop into.

We both knew it was just a fling, but spending an entire night with you, being so close, didn't help with how attached I feel to you.

I feel like I'm yours, and I kind of wish I was, but its my own selfishness that lead to this attachment.

I'm the words of one of my friends "Crap on shit." That's the perfect way.of describing this situation.