So sad

I had an appointment today. First one. I called twice to tell them I would be late because of getting lost. They said it's fine. I get there and they refused me. My insurance also doesn't work there. I had to skip my last one scheduled because of another traffic accident. I am so sad and depressed now. I just want to see my baby and heart it's heart beating. I am so sick of wondering and now I can't stop crying. I am 9 weeks 5 days.