Birth method

Heath • Pregnant with second baby. Daughter is 2. Married for 5 years.
Anyone else really struggling with how they want to give birth? I know that natural can be so much better for recovery and everything but I have had some trauma in my past and tense situations can increase my anxiety so I am also liking the idea of an epidural. What are you thinking and what helped you make the decision? Please be gentle, I am really struggling.