Told to stop ttc bc of Lupus

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I saw my dr today bc I'm beginning to flare up. I always have achy joints and my hip is pretty sensitive, but I've barely been able to work the past few days (I'm on my feet my whole shift). I'm also getting a discoid rash everywhere.  I'm 3dpo and my dr told me to stop ttc until it's controlled. Well I could be pg. or not. But this makes me so sad. I've been on methotrexate which makes you pretty much infertile while taking it and up to around 6 months after. The news is just so disheartening.