Thought it was our time

38 days no af!! I was starting to feel so happy that I might be pregnant. Told my husband that I might be and we were so excited and happy that it was finally our time!! Then last night af showed he ugly face!! I'm trying not to show my husband how upset I am but it's so hard all I want to do is cry. I was so unbelievably happy about finally becoming a mother, something iv wanted for a long time and my dreams were shattered once again!! I don't think it's ever going to happen for us and it's so hard to come to terms with it and put on a happy face around our friends that do have children