11 dpo BFN

Stacey
I am counting myself out this month.
I know, I know. I still have 4 more days until my AF comes.
But i have had no symptoms, stark white BFN's, and my temp is slowly dropping. Started at 98.8, at peak, and am now 98.3.
I know it's only our 4th month TTC and it takes time.
But I feel a little piece of my soul shatter with each negative test. 
My SO is trying to be supportive, but I just shut down and want to cry.
I know I'm being melodramatic, but I remember getting BFP's early on with both girls. 
Am I the only one who is ready for AF to show her nasty face so I can start all over again? 😪😪😪