Hope Again

My husband and I got pregnant the first month we were trying. But, I had a miscarriage early at six weeks. I just tried to move on and focused on trying again. I never dealt with the loss.

Miraculously we got pregnant again 4 months later. I had a feeling this time something wasn't right. I am a big worrywart so I just tried to calm myself down. I went in for an ultrasound. We could see the heart flicker at six weeks. But, the baby still looked small. I went in again by myself for a second ultrasound. The tech told me I had lost the baby. We have done a lot of testing. There isn't any medical reason why I miscarried twice. 

I have been so humbled by these life altering events. I cannot control what happens in my life. A Bible study helped me work through my grief. Only God has a plan and I am learning to be patient. I have good days and bad days. My bad days are fewer though. 

This story doesn't have a happy ending yet. But, I know it will. Whether we adopt or I am able to keep a baby on earth, there will be a happy ending. But, I have hope again. Sending baby dust to all.