I'm in Agony!

Nikki • Self employed artist- married to the love of my life on 3/24/12-- ttc since August 2014 ***Baby O'Hung due 8/10/16***
The doctors' office called me a few minutes ago, and told me that my bloodwork was negative--after taking my third round of letrozole, a trigger shot and progesterone suppositories (first cycle using the latter two) 
I'm sure many of you know how I feel---numb and in a sea of sorrow and rage. I don't know what to do anymore. Every month I feel worse and worse. Right now--tonight--I'm not going to do anything! No going out. No friends. No makeup. No clothes. Just pajamas, Netflix and some good ol' fashioned comfort food. 
Because beating the s**t out of every happy pregnant women in eyesight would be a bad thing to do now.