Still trying to deal with a MC and now my DH and I found someone we love at home after committing suicide. My heart hurts. Our family is hurting. To know that this person was feeling so lonely and depressed that they felt nothing could fix it hurts. We did all we could do and in the end it was not enough. How are we supposed to live with this? How are we supposed to move on with this hole in our hearts and our lives? Knowing that there was nothing we could do to help this beloved member of our family, this kind soul, this blessing in our lives? I ask God how are we supposed to carry on every day knowing that someone we loved was hurting so badly and even seeing this person every single day of our lives, and not knowing how much pain he was in? I do not know how, but for him we will try.